The Cellar / I miss beest so much

**Posted by monster** 4/24/2023 9:34 pm

I have nothing else to say, but for no particular reason tonight is a bad night

**Posted by monster** 4/24/2023 9:36 pm

probably because I'm stupidly tired but not sleepy so my defenses are weakened.... and he's not here to be ...well he's not here

**Posted by griff** 4/25/2023 5:39 am

Sorry lady.

**Posted by Clodfobble** 4/25/2023 11:01 am

**Posted by glatt** 4/25/2023 11:28 am

*hugs*

**Posted by Flint** 4/25/2023 12:04 pm

sorry :-( . . hope you slept okay?

**Posted by fargon** 4/25/2023 1:52 pm

We love you, and want you to feel better.

**Posted by monster** 4/25/2023 7:14 pm

Flint wrote:
sorry :-( . . hope you slept okay?

you so funneh

I mebbe managed 5 hours. Which is not bad for me Tonight I'm tired and getting sleepy, so maybe there's hope! I went to the doc because my foot is fucked up and after discussion we decided to try and avoid steroids because of my sleep probs so we just have to hope the alternative meds don't fuck with me I still miss beest, but I'm not crying uncontrolably and for no good reason. yet. ;)

thanks guys

**Posted by Limey** 4/30/2023 8:17 am

Sorry I'm late to the party. Hope the meds are doing what they should, not what they shouldn't.
Sympathy.

**Posted by monster** 5/31/2023 9:15 pm

Out of nowhere tonight just got rough. I've always been terrible at going to bed. Beest used to help -not just by suggesting sex but also reminding me when I'd said ok, I'll just be a minute and then an hour passes..... I've really been working on going to bed as soon as the first glimmer of tiredness appears this past week or so and I just yawned to I told myself "Time to get to bed *nickname*" and I used the nickname that only he really called me and now I'm a blubbering wreck. A wide-awake blubbering wreck.

This shit sucks.

**Posted by griff** 6/01/2023 5:55 am

It does suck.

**Posted by Limey** 6/01/2023 5:28 pm

Indeed it does.

**Posted by Clodfobble** 6/01/2023 5:48 pm

I'm sorry, monster.

**Posted by Flint** 6/01/2023 6:08 pm

I'm sorry :-(

**Posted by Pete Zicato** 6/17/2023 12:39 pm

This thread is heartbreaking. I hope you’re doing better or at least sleeping better.

**Posted by monster** 6/17/2023 10:47 pm

lol neither but thanks. that said, I'mm'a head up now....shock horror before midnight.. I kept waking up last night, I was up early, I ran a 5K, , Kayaked 6.5 miles ish.... so maybe ...maybe.... ok see y'all at like 3am ;)