The Cellar / Fuck-tober

**Posted by BigV** 11/05/2022 7:14 pm

Let me catch all of you up on all the shit. Not all the shit, just all the shit I can share with you, my family of choice. Sorry in advance for my absence and tardiness. I'm sorry.

F U C K I N G O C T O B E R .

2020 was bad. 10/2022 was worse.

First, SonofV had a(nother) seizure. Went to the hospital. heh.... was at the hospital when the seizure struck. New employer, same job, new site, ... wait for it... he patrols a hospital.. where he had the seizure. Kismet, Karma, Koincidence? DON'T CARE. They had the anti-seizure meds in him inside of 60 seconds of the seizure. THANK YOU. A couple nights in the hospital. Then home, he's ok, thank you baby jeebus.

Caught my breath.

Twil into the hospital, notified by text message while at work.

?!?!?!?!?!? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was the start of a two week stay. There, that's a few words that completely desiccates the day by day dripping agony of the experience. She suffered internal bleeding to the degree that multiple blood transfusions were required. "lost half her blood volume" was a sentence pronounced by the medical staff. Sadness, urine, fear, not an unholy trinity, STILL SUCKS. After an eternity in the hospital, she was discharged on a Friday.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday was awesome.

Sunday morning, call from the hospital. My Mom is in the Intermediate care ward. Truck, ferry, parking, hospital. Then Mom died on Tuesday.

Since then everything has been fucked up. I'm still fucked up. I'm working on the paperwork now. I haven't finished processing anything.

I'm just still fucked up.

**Posted by fargon** 11/05/2022 7:50 pm

Sorry for everything, losing Mom sucks.

**Posted by TheNeverWas** 11/05/2022 7:52 pm

Damn, V. Take a fucking beat, dude. All that is just the fucking suck. I got nothing here for ya, wishing so bad I had something for ya. I'm so sorry about Mom.

**Posted by griff** 11/06/2022 7:32 am

Damn. That is too many dominoes. I'm sorry for your loss brother.

Your son working at a hospital feels like a blessing. I wish Twill a strong recovery.

**Posted by Clodfobble** 11/06/2022 9:52 am

Holy shit, dude. No one deserves all that, let alone all that in quick succession. I hope you find some peace soon.

**Posted by BigV** 11/06/2022 12:32 pm

You guys are the best. Thank you all for being my friends. Priceless, just priceless.

**Posted by glatt** 11/06/2022 7:02 pm

I'm so sorry bout your Mom, V. All of it is more than a person can reasonably be expected to deal with.

**Posted by Limey** 11/08/2022 3:54 am

Oh V! How bloody terrible. That is way too much for a person to bear.

**Posted by Happy Monkey** 11/13/2022 8:45 pm

Sorry to hear that.

**Posted by xoxoxoBruce** 11/15/2022 9:04 pm

Damn, are you being tested by some deity, that's way to much to drop on someone.
It would be reasonable to assume it can't get worse, almost guaranteed to get better now.
But we know that's bullshit, all you can do is keep plugging, hoping, and healing.

Oh, and keep a stiff upper lip when people bestow their "thoughts and prayers" on you.